I’ve always been pro life. I value my Christian beliefs. I believe that God creates and knows each of us in the womb.
In a long term relationship, and a perfectionist about taking my birth control pills, I was shocked to find out that I was pregnant. I still feel shocked and frustrated.
I feel like a majority of the stories I read are people who got pregnant very young, or in a less than desirable situation. My boyfriend and I are both in our late 20’s. We are bright, passionate and thoughtful people invested into our community. We are in love! We had a plan to get engaged. We have great educations and jobs. When I told him that I was pregnant he was supportive and caring and processed everything with me.
We wanted different things. I wanted to cherish the life I felt growing inside of me. He wanted to stick with our plan. We were both afraid of disappointing our families. Ultimately I decided to get an abortion. While I was ready to be a mother, he was not ready to be a father. Unfortunately, one can not come without the other.
I had a medical (pill) abortion at 5 weeks. The stories that are available online vary greatly- my personal experience is that it was indescribable pain. I felt so much shame and guilt and sadness. I felt resentful towards my boyfriend and disappointed with our situation.
I felt really alone in the process. I had the support of my boyfriend, but was afraid to share my situation with friends or family. I wanted to put my story out there, so that if anyone was able to relate they would know that they are not alone.
Abortion isn’t always the answer. I wish it wasn’t my answer. However, I am so thankful for the opportunity to CHOOSE and I know that my relationship, and my future family will be better because of the sacrifice I made now.
To those who believe in pro-life… Thank you for standing up for what you believe. I feel that beliefs change with knowledge and experience. I never thought I would have an abortion. I did. With my current knowledge and experience – I greatly value a woman’s right to choose.