04.09.2015
Media

Anonymous

I had been married for 3 years and was beginning my final year of university. After removing my nuva ring I waited and waited for my period.

We took a test just to prove that it was nothing, that second line was so faded and unclear we told our selves that we were OK. Then the fatigue started, with the sore breasts and the nausea… After another test nearly a week later we got a positive result.

I was never unsure, I knew I wanted this thing out. I felt disgusted by my body and what was growing inside.

We discussed our options, but neither of us wanted it.
My husband was non-stop supportive and my rock.

We made the doctors appointment and got the abortion process started asap. He held my hand through everything.

In the clinic they took me aside separately and talked over everything while my husband waited in the lobby. They were so kind and accepting. She answered all of my questions and I left confident in our choice.

The next week I had the D&C with no complications. I was sedated and woke up about half an hour later. I had the Mirena IUD inserted and we left shortly after. Thankfully between our health care from work and living in Canada we left with out paying a dime.

Overall the worst was coping with the idea of being pregnant, and the effects of the pregnancy. It still kills me to know how much our families want grandkids and that I kept that from them. They will never know, and it is for the best.

I felt no guilt or shame from having the procedure, I believe that it was the best choice for me and my little family.