As I sit here in bed crying, it’s 3:00am and I’m filled with regret. But I will not regret my decision to do what I did, to have had an abortion.

Six years ago I discovered I was pregnant whilst in an abusive relationship. I opted for an abortion. The idea that my life would be tied to the fathers filled me with fear.

I had a medical abortion when I was 9 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I was a single mother of two children already and in an unstable relationship. When we found out I was pregnant, he became even more distant and still. I knew I wouldn’t be able to fairly raise another child on my own without having a traumatic effect on my other children.

We'd decided a year ago that I would stop birth control because of difficulties with side effects, and in combination with our usual withdrawal method and ovulation tracking, we thought we'd be fine.

I had a suction abortion at 4.5 weeks pregnant yesterday.
I read lots of stories hoping to find more details than I did about the process itself,
So I've decided to write out my experience for other woman who are scared about their first abortion.

When I was in college, I was in a serious relationship and sexually active with my now-husband, then-boyfriend.