So quickly I decided to keep it. In my mind there was no other way. I was so set on keeping it. Then suddenly I didn’t want it. I thought about it and suddenly the idea of having a baby at 18 and being a hostess terrified me. I made the decision so fast it feels. It was probably the most painful thing I’ve experienced and I’d never do it again. I don’t know if I regret it or not. I know I’m sad and I miss my almost-baby. But it was my choice and I’m glad I even had the choice.