I barely had enough to survive. I know deep down it was the right choice but it did come with regret. I was only a few weeks pregnant. I had a choice to look or not to look at the sonogram. I chose to look at the sonogram. The technician said it was very early in the pregnancy. It looked like a grape. But I haven’t had a night where I didn’t cry to sleep. Some days I feel so alone. I can’t move from my bed. I don’t eat. I don’t shower. I lay in the dark looking out the window. I pray to God to forgive me. But I knew it was the best choice.