During my separation and the final divorce, I had an encounter with an old friend that led to an unplanned pregnancy. The timing could not have been worse and I couldn’t have handled a 4th child at that age, at that stage and under those circumstances. I didn’t want to raise a child, one conceived out of wedlock with a man I didn’t plan to be with for the long term. And I couldn’t have explained it to my 3 young children, my extended family or anyone. I decided to have an abortion and my friend supported me and helped take care of things. However, it was emotional and I was terrified that someone would find out and tell my ex, my kids, or whomever. And that doesn’t even begin to to describe the fear I had of things going wrong in the process or afterward. The worst, though, are the tremendous feelings of guilt and sadness I feel to this day.