11.16.2015
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Anonymous

I am 24 and hold a bachelors and masters. I am in my first year of teaching
and have dated a wonderful man for 2.5 years. I felt different and couldn’t remember the last time I had my period, so I took a pregnancy test. It turned positive so quickly- I panicked. Immediately, I called my boyfriend and we went to Planned Parenthood together to confirm. It was indeed positive; 4 weeks along. It feels completely surreal right now, like I’m in a dream.

We both discussed our options, and termination seems like the logical choice. I am from a very Catholic family and telling them of pregnancy outside of marriage (or abortion) is not going to happen. I have my abortion scheduled for Saturday. I can’t eat, can’t sleep, and can’t focus on work. I am going to feel relieved when this is over, but I am very conflicted about the morality of my decision in light of my upbringing. Neither one of us is ready for a child. We’re educated and generally upstanding people. I’m just terrified of what my long term emotional needs will be. I have scheduled time already with a therapist for post-procedure.