I was in college and had one crazy weekend with a guy leaving for the army. Found out I was pregnant and had a “no guilt” abortion.

One year later, I became pregnant by my long time boyfriend. He wanted me to have an abortion but I did not want one. We went to a counselor who said no matter the outcome, I would never forgive him for his position. I decided to have the abortion, knowing it would end the relationship. However, I did not recover as quickly this time. One night, all alone in my house, I went into labor and delivered a dead fetus in my bathroom. I had been pregnant with twins and only one was aborted. This has haunted me for 35 years. I have a daughter who I fiercely love. I would never want her to have an abortion. It was the worst thing I have ever done in my life and I can never forgive myself.