When I was a junior in high school, my boyfriend, at the time, and I were having protected sex when the condom broke. When he first realized this I hadn’t been hit with any emotions yet.
He then backed away from me on the bed, I remember reaching out for him to touch his arm and he shook me off and flailed his arms to get me away from him. It was then when the emotions hit me, I was so panicked. I had no idea what to do. I put my clothes back on and practically ran out of his house without saying a word.
I felt alone in that moment, why would I have to comfort him? I was the one that was going to be ridiculed and judged about this. I went home and into my room, I googled Plan B and called my boyfriend telling him that he needed to buy it for me because I was 16 and he was 17. The next day I took the pill and I thought everything would be fine. This was the largest secret I had kept from anyone only my closest friend knew what had happened.
About a month and a half later I realized that something was definite13ly wrong, I still had not gotten my period. I called my best friend crying that she needed to help me. I took two pregnancy tests at her house and when they both came back positive cried my soul out to her. I was so scared mostly what my mom would think of me. I called my boyfriend and told him to come over to her house, he did and I cried to him that I was pregnant and had no idea what to do about it. While I was crying he sat near me but not comforting me in anyway. He then went home to tell his mother all before I had the chance to stop crying, he forced me to go over to his house and confront his mom about what had happened between us and take another pregnancy test. It just confirmed what I already knew was true. I had to sit with HIS mother and talk about what I wanted to do. I had no idea what to do, she wasn’t my mother so I just left and went to wait for my mom.
When my mom got home and I told her she just held me and comforted me, it was all I needed to feel strong. My mother was Wonder Woman during this time, she sat me down and told me all the options I had. She said she would support my decision no matter what because she loved me and knew that I made a mistake. I decided that I wanted an abortion, I could barely deal with what was happening at this moment. I knew that I couldn’t support a child and I didn’t want to think about having a child and then never being able to know it later on in life. I believe that I made the right decision for my situation. My boyfriend was basically non-existent after the night we had made a mistake. My father was also my rock, telling him was probably the hardest thing Ir have ever had to do. It is so hard to tell your father that you had sex and that the boy got you pregnant.
My parents and my best friend were my biggest strengths during this time. I have them to thank for all their support, without them I am sure I would be in a very different place than I am right now.