I could not believe how ignorant I had acted in thinking “it will never happen to me.” At 20 years old and a junior in college, I found out I was pregnant. It did not hit me until I went to my university’s health center where it was confirmed. Shaking and on the verge of tears, I made a decision- I was not ready to have a child. At night I would lie in bed rubbing my stomach, wishing there could be a different outcome; however, I knew that in order to have a successful life for myself and a possible future child or children, I needed to make this decision. I feel so grateful for the extreme amounts of support I have gotten from all of my friends around me.
There are some days I feel sad, wishing I could still feel the nausea, or still feel tired, knowing that this was because there was a mini-me inside of myself. Anytime I have those thoughts, though, I push them out of my head knowing that keeping my child would have been extremely selfish and would have only made my child’s life and my life a constant struggle. If I could say one thing to any girl not using any form of contraceptives: Please, please protect yourself. You do not want the mental anguish, stress, and sadness that this has caused me and my partner.