Sometimes I question my decision, I have thoughts about the twins I never gave birth to.
I was 18 when I found out I was pregnant it was the weekend I was at new student orientation getting ready to start my first year of college.
I honestly didn’t think I was pregnant until I realized that I couldn’t remember the last time I had my period and that same day I went back to the hotel I was staying at with my parents and younger brother and secretly took a test in the bathroom, of course it came back positive. I shouldn’t have been surprised, I was having unprotected sex with my boyfriend (who I’m still with almost 3 years later).
Anyways I didn’t tell my parents and I still haven’t, instead I went to my boyfriends mom, she and my boyfriend came with me to planned parenthood and helped me pay for the abortion. I had never been so scared in my life but I knew that I wasn’t at a point where I could take care of one child and especially not twins. Surgery has always been scary for me so I took the abortion pill and I don’t know if this is wrong to say but I feel like this made me a stronger person. I took that pill at home with my parents and siblings downstairs, I stayed in my room all night, alone waiting for it to over, the only company I had was my boyfriend who stayed on the phone with me the whole time.
Sometimes I do question my decision but at the end of the day I know I made the choice that was right for me, abortion is a right that every women should be afforded and it’s a right that I’m extremely grateful for; I looked at every option before I decided an abortion was the way for me to go but I know who I am and what works for me.