I was in college when I was date raped. I went to a party and suddenly everyone was gone except the two of us. I had no car and the buses were done running for the night. I was in a dangerous part of town and he knew I was scared to walk 5 miles back to my dorm alone.
I had no money and went to college in a state far from home. I waited for it to end so I could go home. I ended up pregnant by this monster. I truly didn’t realize that it was rape until many years later when I was reading a book and the dots connected. I cried and cried when I finally came to terms with the assault and then the pregnancy. That was a long time ago and, if anything, it has made me cherish every single day I have with my kids. I am so thankful that I was able to have these amazing gifts when I was ready to love and care for them. I can’t go back and change anything. Do I regret trusting someone I shouldn’t have? Yes. Do I regret not pressing charges? Yes. Do I regret severing ties and opting not to quit college to raise a rapist’s baby? No. Unless you have been there you have no idea. Never judge.