I was newly married and terrified when I became pregnant. I was unsure of my relationship and had come from a dysfunctional family that I was afraid to recreate.
I knew that I was not ready to be a mother yet. Though my husband would have been a willing father, he understood that it was not something I could handle at the time. I had an abortion. Since then I have had two wonderful boys who I might not have had had I gone through with the first pregnancy. I never regretted my decision.
I would never have gone through with the pregnancy and given the child up for adoption. I have seen two tragic adoption scenarios, and I find it interesting that adoption is portrayed as a beautiful option. I believe adoption can be as traumatic for some as an abortion is for some and as I have witnessed, not all children who are adopted live happy lives.